what a difference a day makes

I have to be the bearer of the news that I am no longer pregnant.  I was pretty excited to share the news (since I actually kept it quiet for 5 weeks) and didn't even consider that there might be a problem...but apparently there was.  I knew Wednesday afternoon that something was going on that shouldn't and, after a (long) visit to the ER Thursday, it was confirmed.  

Physically, I am fine. My body is doing what it does in this situation.  Unless a complication arises, I will have a follow-up in a week or two.  Mentally...well I'm still figuring that out.

I am sure that you will only have kind words of support for Jim and I but, at least for now, I would prefer to just leave the news "as is" and not have conversation about it.  Jim may have different feelings about it...but these are mine.  I may blog about it at a later date.  Right now I am going to dose up on some Advil, grab the heating pad and go to sleep.

Silly, I  know, but I do feel a bit foolish for telling people early (5 weeks) but again, with never having any previous problems, I figured 'sure, why wait?'. Jim said today that he was just processing that I was pregnant and now has to totally shift his thinking.  I'm sure you're feeling the same. Who knows...maybe we'll be sharing good news of a pregnancy again in the future. We still have a month or so to "get what you get by 40". haha.

In the mean time, you can keep up on the latest at our family web site or our individual blogs.

kristi's: http://kcblue@blogspot.com

jim's: http://drjimmyc.blogspot.com

Thank you, as always, for your love and prayers.

sharing the news

Today, on our fifth wedding anniversary, I told Jim that we were expecting again.  I'd already had a couple of days to digest the news so was a little anxious to see his reaction.  He didn't believe me this time either...even with the stick in front of him!

We dove right in to discussing the fact that, while he and Olivia are covered, I currently do not have health insurance.  Given the health issues I dealt with, while pregnant with Olivia, this is a bit nerve-wracking.  Something else to consider is that I don't have an OB/GYN.  I got a 'clean bill of health' from my Dr. before we moved and, given the insurance situation, hadn't bothered to even think about finding one in our new location.  So...parent guilt has already reared it's ugly head.  We will begin a series of phone calls tomorrow to establish a physician, get those important pre-natal vitamins and figure out how much this is going to cost!

With those important questions to answer, we decided that we would wait to share the news. Well...that lasted about 6 hours 'til we were on the phone with my in-laws and we blabbed. We will blab to the girls and my parents tomorrow.

I'm horrible at keeping secrets...well...good news secrets.  I'm feeling like there is so much negativity in the world right now that when there is something truly joyous to share...why hold it in??!!